Friday, 4 March 2016

Our Beautiful Granddaughter

Hello to all my lovely blog friends.

I'm absolutely devastated to pass this news on to you lovely ladies that have been here for me, through all Claire's highs & lows and all the pains during her pregnancy and looking forward to the day of our beautiful Granddaughters birth, only to give you the most saddest news ever.

Claire rang us on Tuesday morning to say that she hadn't felt the baby move, and that she had had the best nights sleep in all of her pregnancy. We rushed over and  the mid wife was called. When she used her monitor she couldn't find a heartbeat so Claire was rushed to hospital. We followed in our car, by the time we got there Claire had had the scan and we were taken into a side room and were told our little granddaughter's heart was no longer beating. Claire also had a fall that same morning, but they later said it wasn't due to the fall.

We sat with Claire on Tuesday and Wednesday. All the while we were with her she was holding and stroking her bump and saying she loved her so much, such a hard thing to watch, and nothing I could do would ever make it better. Thursday  morning they induced her.  She went into full labour about 4.40pm and Paul & I went home earlier in the day as they only have the father and staff at the birth. We had a phone call from Toby at 11.45 last night (Thursday) to say that Claire had been an absolute star and had delivered her little baby girl. All night they laid in bed with their baby girl reading her Winnie the Pooh stories, and today while we were there they were showing her photo's of her nursery and her playmate Figaro( the cat ) and all her little toys. My heart is just breaking for them.

Evelyn ( Evie ), Katie Ward was born at 22.22pm on 03-03-2016 weighing 7lb 7oz

Today (Friday) we went to meet our Granddaughter. She was perfect in every way. She has Blue eyes the cutest, tinniest little nose I have ever seen and tiny little pixie ears and exactly the same shaped mouth as Claire with beautiful auburn hair. I held her for a long time not wanting to let her go. Claire took some photo's of us holding our little bundle, Claire has been so very brave, and it's been Claire and Toby that have been comforting us. bless them. We need to pull ourselves together now as they are going to need our strength more than ever when they leave the hospital tonight without little Evie. Oh!  I can't put into words how we are feeling, and doubt I ever can.

So I'm sending you all an over whelming Thank you, to all of you who have been here supporting us, you are very, very special people to me, and I Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Big Hugs Always

Tina XX


  1. Dear Tina, Claire Toby and family I am so so sorry to hear your devastating news. I know how much all of you have you been looking forward to Evie's birth and for this to happen is so tragic.
    Nothing I or anyone can say will make this time any easier for you and your family, but you will be in my thoughts and prayers at this sad time.
    With love and sympathy

  2. Heaven has the perfect angel tonight and my babies will take Evie by the hand and keep her from harm.
    Andy and I send you all much love, our hearts break for you.

    Sleep tight sweet angel xx

  3. Oh Tina.
    I'm having a bit of a cry for u. I'm so so sorry.
    My hearts with u and ur family and it's breaking big time.
    All my love pet xx

  4. Oh Tina, I am so, so sorry to read your sad news. My heart goes out to you all, especially Claire and Toby, but all of the family on both sides. You all now need to have time to grieve in private. Hazel xxx

  5. Dear Tina, I am so desperately sorry and sad to read your latest news. I firmly believe Evie is in Heaven , safe in the arms of the angels, watching over you all.
    You will always remember little Evie and I send my sincerest and deepest condolences to you all. Claire and Toby will need all the support you can give them, and you are in my prayers.
    Much love and God Bless, Maureen xxx

  6. Dear Tina. I cannot imagine the heartache you must all be feeling at this sad time. I'm pleased you had chance to hold Evie and tell her how precious she was to you all. I hope that knowing so many of us care and are praying for all of you is of comfort to you. God Bless. Pat xx

  7. Dear Tina Paul Claire and Toby my heart is breaking at the sad news of little Evies passing. I can't imagine the pain your in right now and no words I can say will make the pain go away. I just had to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. All my love to you and your family. Love Loraine Jefferis

  8. Tina, I dont know how you would be feeling right now - it is such a painful time for you all. My thoughts are with the whole family

  9. Ms Linda ( March 2016 at 03:42

    My prayers to you and the family during this traumatic time. May God give all the peace to endure the challenges before you to heal. Embrace the parents for they will need all the support possible.

  10. Tina, so sorry to hear your sad news my thoughts and prayers are with you all.
    Nancy xx

  11. I am crying buckets as i read this and it brings such unhappy memories back to me, as i went full term with my first little girl , however i went on to have 3 lovely handsome strapping boys later .
    I send you all my love and gentle hugs .
    Take Care
    Elaine H X

  12. Oh Tina, what can I say, the tears are poring down my face as I try and type this, the devastation that you all feel is unbearable and nothing will ever take away the hurt you are all feeling at this time. Be strong for Claire and Toby, and for each other, treasure the photo's you have on little Evie, they will in time bring you lots of comfort.

    I have been in exactly the same situation as you in 2002 when we lost our little Amelia, it was like hell on earth and something our family will never ever get over. For us it was even worse because my son and d-i-l could not have children without any help, they tried again and lost a little boy at 5 months, after a time and for the last time they tried again but this did not work. But there is good news, we now have the most wonderful little adopted granddaughter you could ever wish to meet, she is a joy to us all, we will never forget our other 2 grandchildren who hold a special place in our hearts.

    My thoughts and prayers are with all of you at this very sad time.

    Stay safe, hugs, June Smith xxx

  13. Oh my Dear lovely Tina I have just read this saddest news ever and my heart is breaking for you and and your lovely daughter and family . I'm not the best person with words but just want to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
    God bless you all my lovely friend.

    Love and gentle hugs Sheila xxxx

  14. Hi Tina. I am laying in bed recovering from surgery.The tears are flowing from
    the saddest news for you and your family. I have been there with my daughter some time ago.
    Fortunately at 41 she went on to have 2 babies in a year. (one was a bag of sugar but would not
    think so now. My families thoughs and prayers will be with you for some time.

    Hugs and kisses Mave L x

  15. My dearest Tina I can't get my head around reading the saddest news I have just read with tears rolling down my face my heart is breaking for Claire Toby you & Paul so devastating for you all little Evie's passing your all in my thoughts & prayers
    God bless you all my lovely friend.
    Love & gentle Hug's Lynda xxxx

  16. Tina, my heart just broke for you all. Especially little Evie. So hard to comprehend. I'm absolutely devastated for you. Wishing you love, acceptance and strength. I'm so overwhelmed right now. God love you all. Lorraine xxxx

  17. This is so sad, I would like to send You and all your family my Deepest Condolences. I can not imagine how you are all feeling, it's so tragic. I wish you all the strength you are going to need. Bless you all.

  18. Dear Tina, I'm in tears and my husband doesn't no why as I can't speak yet to tell him. Please accept my deepest condolences to you all.
    All my love Clare xx

  19. Oh, my Tina, my heart is breaking for you, Claire and Toby on the tragic loss of your beautiful little Evie. There are just no words to tell you the depth of saddness I am feeling for you now. I pray the Lord will give you strength and peace during your time of great grief and loss. I am so sorry.

  20. Oh Tina,
    I've been missing as have been on holiday . I'm just so very sad to read your devastating news! I , too, have wept as I read your kind, brave message. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband and especially Claire and Toby. None of you will ever forget baby Evie and I firmly believe that God has her in His love and care!
    Sending you big hugs, my dear! Myra xxxx

  21. Dear Tina
    I am so sorry to hear your sad news .you are in my thoughts and prayers for you and your husband Claire and Toby Godbless

    hugs Jeanie xxxx

  22. Dear Tina and family. We are so very,very sorry to hear about your tragic news. We just cannot believe what has happened. I really hope you received my phone text. We are just devastated for you and Claire and all the family. Please know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Please phone us if you want to talk. We are always there for you. Sending you and Paul our heartfelt condolences Tina. Please pass on our heartfelt condolences to Claire and Toby to. With all our love and best wishes Tres and Steve x x x

  23. Oh Tina. I have just read your devastating news, you must all be heart broken. Words can not express how you must all be feeling at your sad loss of your beautiful little princess. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Sending huge comforting hugs. Take care Tina.
    Denise T x

  24. Dear Tina,So very, very sad to hear the news about Claire and your new grandaughter. I wish I could put my arms about you all and take the pain away at this very upsetting time.Take care of each other. Love from Mary - Durham

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  26. Dearest Claire.
    I can't get you out of my mind. I'm thinking of you so much today my love.
    You will be in my thoughts for a long time, I can't begin to imagin the immense pain and sorrow and emptiness you are feeling, but I wish I could take it all away for you darling.
    Sending you our hugs.
    Steph, Andy & Lou xx

  27. My Dear Tina, such devastating news. I am not good at words, but want you all to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all x

  28. Hi Tina
    I have just read your saddest of news. How devastating for you all.
    My thoughts are with you and your family at this sad time.
    I wish i could take away your pain
    Love and hugs to you all xxx

  29. Dear Tina,
    Sending hugs and prayers to you and your family from the USA. I'm so so sorry for your devastating loss. I can't even imagine your pain.

  30. Tina
    Steph pointed me in the right direction (on Particraft today) to leave you a message. Absolutely devastated for you all, no more words. Try to keep strong, family is everything, and you so much need each other. Huge sympathy and hugs.

    'P' in Wales

  31. Dearest Tina and Paul, Claire and Toby,
    I am very very sorry to read and hear off this tragic event, i have been trying to pluck up the courage to type this since Friday but i just don't know what to say or do that would take your hurt away. The loss of this much wanted wee lass is going to be raw for a long time to come but my hopes are high that one day your dream will be fullfilled and like me tell your children about that very much loved and wanted little person that came into your lives for the briefest of periods. Sending you hugs Tina for you and your family, it is devastating that as a mother you can't take away that hurt or grief and you have to stand by and watch your child at her lowest knowing the only thing you can do is be there for her. I hope that someone will be there for you as well flower because it wasn't just your child that was expecting, you were as well. I'm sorry that i can't put into words what i would like to but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers,
    Norah (Glenochil Village)

  32. Sending very heartfelt sympathy to you and your daughter and the whole family. I have been in Claire's circumstance before and all you can do is love her and comfort her as much as you can. She will remember the love she felt with you forever. It has been a long time since I lost my beautiful daughter but I do remember the love along with the pain in my heart. Prayers to you all, Beth

  33. Tina, it must have taken such enormous strength for you to write these devastating words, my heart goes out to you all. You will be such a crutch for Claire & Toby over the next few months, make sure you take care of yourself and Paul also.
    Much love to you all, Angela xx

  34. Tina and Paul, Claire and Toby and all of your family, I am heartbroken to read your devastating news. You have shown tremendous courage to write these words, the hurt must be so bad for you all. You are such a close family I know you will all do everything you can to support each other. Beautiful little Eveie, too beautiful to live in this world will be in your hearts for ever and God will care for her until you are all together again.
    Much love to you all.

  35. Tina and Paul, Claire and Toby my heart is crying for you, such devastating news. May God hold you in his arms and help you through the times ahead. Love Theresa xx

  36. I am new to your site but shocked to read of your sad news today. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Granddaughter. I know it is impossible to understand why this would happen to your daughter. I hope you can find comfort and peace with each other and from God. I will be praying for all of you but especially Claire and Toby. I am truly sorry for all of you and hope you are able to feel the prayers being said for you all.
    Sandra Smith

  37. Hi ladies.
    I spoke with a very empty and heavy hearted Tina last night. Their world has fallen apart in the blink of an eye.
    I mentioned to Tina all the kind supportive and caring messages of love and sympathy you have all left for them as obviously she is in no fit state to want to visit her blog as I know you will appreciate and understand. Tina has asked me to thank you on her behalf for the kind and genuine heartfelt messages both here and those of you that have emailed her. She also sends her apologies for not replying to you personally, but she is just heart broken and numb, I told her that no-one would ever dream of receiving personal "Thank You's" and that you just wanted Tina, Paul,Claire and Toby to know that you are thinking of them at this most awful time.
    There are many weeks and months ahead that will be so difficult for the family to live through as they prepare to say goodnight to their cherished little Evie - their beautiful, perfect little Rainbow Baby. Evie will have a trust fund set up in her memory as the need for a second 'cuddle cot'/cool cot is so badly needed at the hospital and they are extremely costly, so that is the aim of Tina and the family to raise funds for this purpose. So we wish them every success to reach their goal.
    So a big "thank you" from Tina for all your care and kindness at this devastating time xx

    1. Thank you for updating us Stephanie, I've been thinking about Tina and her family every day since she last posted. I just hope that time will help them all recover from their devastating news.
      Hugs Angela xx

  38. Oh Tina words just fail me Nothing I can say will describe how I feel for you Suffice to say I am just so so sorry that this has happened Take care

  39. Thank you Stephanie ,I have been thinking of Tina and her Family since her last post my prayers and thoughts are with them .
    God Bless jeanie .e

  40. Hello Tina, I just want to wish you and your family all the Blessings of Easter, and you are still in my thoughts and prayers.
    Maureen xx

  41. Evening ladies and all friend's and followers of Tina's beautiful blog.

    Tina e-mailed me earlier this evening, the reason being that she was just far to upset to talk in person which is completely understandable.

    Tina has asked if I would update you all.

    Tomorrow is 4 weeks to the day that baby Evie was bought into the world. Very sadly Evie was called away too soon.

    Mummy & daddy - Claire & Toby, Tina & Paul - Grandma & Grandad, and uncle Craig, plus other family and friends will say "goodnight" to their perfect little rainbow baby girl tomorrow morning at 10.45.

    I know you will want Tina to know just how sad and upset we all feel for them and that they are in our thoughts. The rest of the information is for Tina to hold close to her heart, and maybe in time share that with you on her blog. I didn't ask if she wanted me to share such personal details, so I don't feel it's right to do that without Tina's say so and I know you will whole
    heartedly understand and agree.

    Thank you for passing by and taking the time to read this update.

    Many thanks x

  42. Claire, Toby, Tina & Paul and Craig.

    Words cannot express how empty my heart feels for you today. Nothing we say will make it more bearable, no words we talk will help, but you know how much I'm thinking of you on this awful day.

    May the colours of the rainbow wrap themselves around your very precious Rainbow baby and keep her safe from harm.
    Heaven has a very special baby girl today, and let the brightest star in the sky tonight shine down on you all for that brightest star is your sweetheart looking down on you keeping you safe.

    Love you. Tears flow for you all especially mummy and daddy xxx

  43. Thinking of you God bless
    jeanie .e

  44. Thank you Stephanie your words are perfect as i feel just the same
    jeanie e

  45. Thinking of u all today.

    Love Tracy xxx

  46. So very sad for you all, wish it was possible to take the hurt away.
    Saying your goodbye must be the hardest thing ever.
    Can only send hugs.

    'P' in Wales

  47. I hope you all have managed to get through today supported by the love which we all feel for you. My thoughts and prayers continue to be said for the whole family and baby Evie. God Bless.
    Maureen xxxx

  48. Thank you Stephanie.
    Thinking of you all Tina - Hugs Angela x